My Deepest Fear

The hardest part about working on this sermon series Called To Courage is that if I want to be authentic and preach it to myself first before my students it means I must confront my fears when it comes to my Christian walk. So as I write this here are my biggest fears.

1. Inadequacy

Confession time. Most of the time I do not feel skilled or talented enough to be a pastor. I fall into the sin of comparison and I just don’t feel like I am as good as the next guy. I have seen God do amazing things, and I so easily forget that it doesn’t matter whether or not I am adequate because Gos is more than capable. The truth is He empowers me when I walk in faith and obedience and because I am called He equips me for His purposes. The problem is I don’t trust His promises enough. So the message tonight is for me and my students.

2. Holding back.

The best way to put this is in lyrics to a song by Matthew West.

This might hurt, it’s not safe

But I know that I’ve gotta make a change

I don’t care if I break,

At least I’ll be feeling something

‘Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don’t wanna go through the motions

I don’t wanna go one more day

Without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking,

What if I had given everything,

Instead of going through the motions?

No regrets, not this time

I’m gonna let my heart defeat my mind

Let Your love make me whole

I think I’m finally feeling something

‘Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of this life

Cause I don’t wanna go through the motions

I don’t wanna go one more day

Without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking

What if I had given everything,

Instead of going through the motions?

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